walking contradiction

today, i roasted a whole chicken for the first time, and it made me feel like a bona fide grown-up.

i'm 28 years old, i'm a mom, but i still feel like a kid sometimes. i'd rather watch gossip girl than charlie rose, and i probably have more in common with the high school girls in my small group than their moms. (in the small town where i live, there just aren't a lot of women aged in-between.) i'm in a great bible study with women who are mostly in their forties and fifties, and when i showed up in my hoodie, thick-rimmed glasses, and snow booties, i definitely looked like a college kid. truthfully, i don't feel all that different today than i did back then.

what makes a person an adult? is it living on your own? a "big kid" job? marriage or parenthood? buying a house? having your financial bases covered? is it knowing how to roast a chicken and then make soup from the carcass? (my next project...) is it wearing "mom jeans"? Lord, i hope not!

the other night i watched the tv show lie to me. in one scene, the woman is eating a pudding snack, and her partner is incredulous. later, she's drinking a slushie or something, and he asks, "how OLD are you?" i've been asked that before...

it totally put me in the mood for puddin'. yesterday, i went grocery shopping, and i was feeling proud of myself because i only bought whole foods--veggies, eggs, cheese, milk, two whole chickens...and reddi wip. i almost resisted and then thought, who am i kidding, that stuff is delicious. so i came home and made chocolate pudding with marshmallows and reddi wip, and it was pretty much the best thing i've ever eaten.

i'm an adult, but i don't quite feel like a "grown-up." i like to eat healthfully, but there's always room for JELL-O.

what contradictions are you rocking? what do you think makes a person"grown"?


Courtney said...

great post! Not sure what makes you a grown up, because I am not so much into JELL-O, but I will eat a pudding pop any day:)

thanks so much for the prayers! God is good and He is listening!

lauren debo said...

i def. wonder sometimes what the adult age is. i mean i'm 22 going on 23, graduated, married, pay bills, and am living 6 hours away from my parents in my own apt. however, considering that apt means living in a community of college students def. in some ways may bring us down a level to not adult yet. i just don't know. i still feel young, and i feel like even in five years i will feel young. and well maybe feeling young is the trick to it all. being young at heart ya know.

well, i will say without any shame that i totally have pudding packs in my fridge as i write this, and i still love pb & j sandwiches with each piece of bread folded in half.

Anonymous said...

I'm about ten years older than you and I still feel like a kid much of the time. I think you're only as old as you feel, and that's a good thing.

One of the best things about having kids of your own is that you can *pretend* that the chockie pudd and marshmallows with Redi-whip is for the children!


PS Thanks for visiting my blog.

Anonymous said...

You are so right about the not really feeling like a "grown-up" thing. I'm 32 and my oldest child started kindergarten this year and every time I talk to his teacher I have to remind myself that I am a parent talking to the teacher, not a student!

Penny said...

I still kinda feel like I did when I was 25 - ten years younger than I am. On the other hand, when I actually mix with gals that age, I realise .. uh.. actually I do behave and think older than that after all.

It's mind blowing to me to think I'm a mum and am supposed to know what to do! HAH!

Debbie said...

I don't think what we eat or those kind of things can possibly make us an adult. But, let me know what you decide:)

aussiehen said...

I'm only a few years older than you and a mum to one, but I still feel like kid most of the time.
It's not so much reflected in my eating but there are certain things, comfort food really that I enjoy.

My husband is more likely to eat "kid food" but there's nothing wrong with that :-)

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